How can I make someone's day today?

I truly think that it is in small actions that we can show love, and I believe that love is meant to be shared. I cannot keep the love that has been given to me, I have to pass it on. Of course I cannot say that I wash someone's dishes everyday but also beat the person, that is not love, and it is silly to believe that the small things I do can 'make up' for the large amount of harm I may inflict. So my goal will be to do small things with great love and refrain from hurting others.

I have decided that I will try making someone's day everyday, be it a friend or stranger. I will also try to be more patient and understanding, judge less and compromise more. I know this has been my resolution for the longest time, and it is proving to be extremely difficult to fulfill, but now that it's out here permanently seared on the internet, I hope I will have more motivation to accomplish it! (Please scold me if I am not being patient and understanding and being judge-y instead lol)

My journey so far has obviously not been easy. Especially when I work at OTT. Sometimes I think that place is cursed lol because every time I work there I feel myself getting so easily annoyed at everybody (customers mostly). And it's strange because I don't feel that way once my shift ends and I don't have to deal with customers from hell anymore. I know what I have to do: put myself in their shoes, they are giving us business by eating there so I should do everything I can to make them comfortable and happy. But it is so difficult when they are so rude and inconsiderate to us. T_T

As I was growing up, they constantly told me that they loved me, but their actions said otherwise. It wasn't until I truly looked at my friends and their relationships with others that I realised there was more to love than fear and repayment; that when someone truly loves you, they don't ask for anything in return, nor do they insult you or do things that make you feel afraid to be yourself. I feel like I owe everything to the people that I've met along the way. My friends who have stuck around probably notice the constant change and growth in me. I feel that because of them, I am not scared anymore, I feel free, and maybe that is what relationships are supposed to feel like: free.

xx.

Under the weather

Recently I've been feeling terrible :( My immune system is down and everyday I feel like I'm on the verge of developing a fever and I have to drink gallons of water just to keep my sore throat at bay. But exams are over and my weak body is not going to stop me from having fun! ～♪

I met up with Grace and Tiff to discuss our plan to go to Batam, and even though it didn't really work out, it was great to catch up with them! 

Plus we had some delicious chirashi don and sushi at The Sushi Bar ~

Shopping with xh in the day......

.... and dancing all night hehe ~

Quite sad that the 3 of us (Charis, xh and I) didn't get a good photo that night :"( especially since it was Charis' first time clubbing (° o°)! It was a great night though, first time I felt so happy when I got high haha usually I'll be really depressed. Must be *best friends therapy* :)

And super happy that I FINALLY got to see Ally and Su ~

Waiting for Ally in topshop:

Waiting for Ally in A&F (is this deja vu? Hahaha):

Here's to a summer break filled with friends, fun and good food～

(^._.^)ﾉ *meow*

xx.

Paddy Hills

Here is a quick post because I need to take a break from studying phew! Mum, dad, Bel and I went to Paddy Hills for brunch this morning and I am in love with the lighting there, it is amazinggg! Even my lousy samsung camera could capture really nice pictures.

Rise and Grind ✧

Berry ricotta hotcake (♥ω♥ ) ~♪

Pretty but expensive!

Are we sibling goals yet? Hahaha
Immensely thankful for family time and good food ~

xx.

summer ~(˘▾˘~)

Finals are next week! Can't believe year 1 is nearly over and I'm going to be year 2 soon! (ノ°ο°)ノ

Blogging some random pictures from the past 1 month+ of being sort of MIA here haha

dinner with xh super long ago lol

Sanpoutei Ramen and Daily Scoop with Ginkee and Cheryl

(ft. cards against humanity lol)

Charis! Thankful for you~~

Thankful for xh too ✿

VIVA ~┌(・。・)┘♪♬

productive day of studying with Grace @ nlb! (though wasted some time decorating this pic haha)

Saw this qt cat while "hiking" (lol walking actually) with Glen at Mt. Faber the other day

Speaking of Glen, he cooked steak~~ (and I ate everything! Haha)

He also cooked salmon and crabmeat mashed potatoes the week before ♡

also went to watch La Sylphide by the Paris Opera Ballet with Rong on Saturday, it was amazing ✧ it was like the dancers weren't human :o

Somehow I always find myself going out with the turtles just before exams haha

It was a good break!

Cui specs cos studying hard lol jk

That's all for now! Back to studyinggggg

... actually I'm just going to bathe and sleep lol

xx.

A Perfect Contradiction

On one hand, I'm the happiest I've ever been; I feel like I'm finally living for myself, and not to please others. I feel loved, and negativity has no hold on me. I'm surrounded by people who only bring out the best in me, and I've learnt to treat everything that happens as a blessing. It makes me want to give as much as I receive.

But at the same time, I'm so scared. I guess it's inevitable that when you've been given so much, you start to fear that one day, in the blink of an eye it could all disappear. I'm afraid that the people I hold so dear will abandon me, not necessarily because they don't like me anymore, but because life (or fate or God) has decided that I've been too blessed. Maybe I'm not used to being this happy. 

After the laughter subsides, I always wonder what they see in me, what I ever did to deserve so much love.

xx.

e-learning is a joke

Lol I really am super unproductive during e-learning week.

But currently feeling very thankful for the time spent with people who matter <3

FINALLY tried Sunday Folks with Joey \o/ (but it was just meh...)

Kai's bday celebration! *confetti*

Swee Choon with the turtles

Dinz with the super busy BFFs:

Cannot stop laughing at Su's face LOL

With the bestest:

"I am going to eat/sleep now, and deal with my problems later." -story of my life lol goodbye

xx.

喜气 洋洋

So it's that time of the year again when I gorge myself on pineapple tarts, kueh lapis and sugee cookies (my 3 favourite CNY goodies, I don't care for anything else lol)

My ootd for day 1, no face cos I looked super cui lol. Probably cos I woke up at 12pm and just threw on my cheongsam and left the house hahaha. I wear the same cheongsam every year so there's no headache about what to wear on chu yi haha.

Cute fish at my grand uncle's house, 年年有余 (鱼) hehe

Chu yi is basically eat, sleep, repeat lol

My chu er ootd was much better haha what is CNY without ootd photos right?

Candid...?

My eye was swollen :( I am so vain, dunno who can tahan LOL

And a photo of the sis, who helped me take all my ootds :)

We went to my dad's friend's house and it was much more fun than the day before, probably cos my mum didn't come along, I feel like I can't be myself around her lol.

Bel looks damn good in this photo?!

On Saturday and Sunday night I joined the OTT and Lola's people for some gambling hehe. We played blackjack and in-between, and on Saturday I was damn lucky idek why *smug smile emoji*. But on Sunday I kept losing :/

Hope I can win some money next week when my relatives come over to play ;)

新年快乐 everybody!!! 恭喜发财，万事如意，年年有余，长命百岁，岁岁平安，红包多多 hehe

xx.