Shadows will be lost in the light

Welcoming 2017 with this song <3

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When I wake up～

Was looking through my old blog posts and decided to start posting more now cos I really like to have something to look back on for memories~ SO this post is about our sloth item! It's super overdue cos we performed it in like September loll

Our first vetting in August!

Second full-dressed vetting:

Anyway this item is reeeeeaalllyyyyy close to my heart (even though it was just a guest performance at SMU's concert) cos of the many many nights that we spent practising in school and experimenting with lots of different stunts especially in the beginning hahaha~ I'm really thankful for all the friendships made and strengthened through the hardships and injuries lol :') they really helped me get through some low times. It wasn't so much about the actual performance, as the process that got us there, honestly don't think I'll ever forget this item :D

Backstage! Eating + playing space team + Rach's fab catwalk hahahha

Thanks Charis for coming and getting me a pretty flower hehe ♥(ˆ⌣ˆԅ)

Love these people, couldn't imagine doing this with any other bunch ( ˘ ³˘)♥

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Bel's Bdayヾ(-_- )ゞ

Photos from Bel's bday dinner with the family like 3+ months ago LOL. Everything had to be photogenic since it was her day hahaha

I have no idea what this thing is lol just take picture only

 The new trend of not smiling for pics...?

Full family attendance!!

Omg totally forgot how to edit the html already :o hope the alignment and everything on this isn't screwed up haha :/

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Slow Dancing in a Burning Room

Hellooooo I'm back after a pretty long time haha. I've just been taking time to reconnect with myself and get over my breakup. It was a really shitty feeling at first and I just felt so lost and hopeless that I couldn't do things properly, cried nonstop in public and embarrassingly had a breakdown at training sighh. 

But through this, I realised that there were so many people who were there for me and who love me unconditionally. I'm eternally grateful for all my friends, and especially xh who was there for me every single step of the way, listening to me and giving me pep talks :) and of course my dad who had so much patience with me, always checking if I was ok and comforting me even though he was probably sick of my crying lol. And I've also discovered how strong I really am. This relationship was eye-opening because it taught me that if we have to sacrifice so much of ourselves to chase after people who don't know our worth and don't treasure us, we'll end up being the one who's hurt in the end.

The way that he abandoned me and turned me to just another girl in his past hurt me so deeply, and I've to admit that I'm still not over that pain. But we move on the best we can. So I'm gonna continue my life where I left off, and stop chasing after people who don't want me~

Gonna publish some backdated posts soon heehee

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Escape to Bali

Music: filous - How Hard I Try (Robotaki remix)

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Ally's 21st

Charis, XH and I attended Ally's surprise party yesterday~ it was organised by her BF and I really 佩服 him man, it couldn't have been easy contacting all her friends and coordinating. I was super excited to see Ally's reaction when she saw everyone and everything! And I'm so happy for her, and happy that we were able to be there for her on her 21st! Here're some pics! The venue was stunning, and the food was really goooood hahaha

Aaaaand... with the gorgeous birthday girl!!!!

I was so excited and happy for her that xh said I was smiling the whole way to the hotel LOL but couldn't help it, my heart was so full!

Ally kept saying that she doesn't deserve this, but it's really true that 'people who don't expect much deserve it all'~ Ally's such an amazing girl, kind-hearted and bubbly and bringing joy to everyone, she definitely deserves everything~ Here's to more wonderful years of happiness, happy 21st Ally ～(^з^)-♡

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bloop

Study session disrupted by a fisheye lens and iphone's fade filter..... hehe

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Cherry blossoms in my heart

It's 1st May!!! So I guess it's time for my April photo diary~ Looking at the photos, it's been a pretty eventful month! Even though I felt like I didn't do much lol. Year 2 is gonna end in 2 days and I am not liking the idea of going on to year 3....... :/

ok back to the April photos hahaha
First, sashimi buffet! ヽ(^o^)ノ

The new Creamier at Gillman Barracks~ Yes I'm a waffles&icecream monsterrrr

Tried the new Timbre+ food centre thingy with NUS cell group!

Quinoa salad with the family on my precious free Sunday without Viva~

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14 years with Matt

Matt's birthday was on 15 April and mum and dad brought us to this cute eatery with amazing steak.
Cos Matt, like 99% of guys, loves meat haha.

Bday boy ♡
⊂((・ェ・  ))⊃ノ

Full family attendance!

My fave prawn aglio olio anytime~

It's so shocking to think of how fast my bro grew up :O Why can't he stay cute and small foreverrrrr.... hahah. Anyway, hope he can grow up well to become as amazing as our dad~
Ok I guess the more immediate goal is for him to stop playing so much computer games and do something useful with his life hahaha
Happy birthday to the biggest irritant~
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Sonder

Am feeling afraid because it's back. Everything is the same. No motivation for anything but lying in bed; the universe a breath against my throat and waves behind my eyelids. The worst part- I still can't control it. 

A bad time for this, just when I need to be productive. Breathe. Things will be ok.

The realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own.

Daily life

Happy birthday to this really amazing girl :)

Miss the ex-Viva squad <3

Also gonna miss my 2 training co-captains after they step down :'( 

We recently had auditions and I'm feeling a lil nervous to lead a new batch without these 2 pillars of support haha

Just gonna put this picture here cos it's pretty and it makes me happy haha :)

Anyway I've been re-watching scenes from my favourite Taiwanese drama every single night this week hahaha, it is amazing! And it makes me feel so warm and fuzzy, like I go to sleep happy and wake up in the morning in a good mood~

(abrupt change of topic hahaha) I experienced some pretty intense shock and despair today when I saw my bank account balance lol... This year is just a really bleak year for my finances and my savings from my job have run out haha :((( Even though I've cut down on my shopping A LOT and even the food I eat in school, I still find myself spending tons of money buying gifts, and on dates. I never understood how people could feel so depressed over finances, until today T_T guess it's cos I've always had enough... SIGH please let me get through this...

Anyway I decided to do a photo journal for the month of April and I'm pretty excited! Haha ok I'm weird but taking and editing photos makes me really happy~ (and it's free too lol) 
Have a good month everybody~ (^._.^)ﾉ
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