Consuming Fire

I just came back from church confirmation camp! This was my first time facilitating for a confi camp and it was definitely a very intense experience. Even though I wasn't a participant, there was healing for me, and affirmation of faith. I felt spiritually drained, especially after the pray over and one of the sessions. But at the same time, I felt so so empowered by the holy spirit.

This was the loudest batch of confirmands I have ever met omg haha such the opposite of my own class last time. But I just know that God will use their voices for good, to glorify Him and to proclaim the good news. This batch also came with a lot of hurt and scars, some not even aware of them, and some refusing to acknowledge them. During one of the sessions on Sunday I suddenly felt a rush of emotions and I just broke down crying. I suddenly felt all of their pain and a strong desire to just open their hearts and let God show them His love which heals all wounds. It's something I cannot explain but I just want to lift up to Christ.

This was also my first time praying over someone and I was so worried. What if I ran out of words? What if the person I was praying over didn't rest in the spirit? When should I stop praying? But prayer prep was powerful (a little too powerful) and I managed to just let the spirit take charge of me and my fears just evaporated. I just prayed, "I love them so so so much Lord, send down your spirit to teach me how to love them." And God did.

As a facilitator, I think I did pretty well for my first confi camp (definitely with a lot of grace from God), and I feel and hope that I managed to connect with at least 1 participant, and touch their life deeply. I'm immensely thankful for my co-facil Antaeus. He guided me through so well and his strong faith and great wisdom are such an inspiration to me, I have much to learn from him. Although I was surprised at how God was able to speak through me to the participants, I know that I can really improve on my listening skills. Not listening to the participants- I can do that pretty well.. but listening to what God has to say to them. I struggle with words and it's hard for me to totally surrender to God but there definitely has been progress in this area ever since I started facilitating 2 years ago :) I just pray that I won't stop hungering for the Lord because I've learnt that if you truly yearn for Him, all other things will fall into place.

With Ally! Where am I looking uh.

Then came Fawn

My group!! #perfectredeemer #PRT (missing Jerome Sim sighpie)

Camp shot!! Can never get one with everyone looking at the camera haha.

I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back, no turning back

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Blessed

So many little things have been happening in my life that make me feel like I'm really very blessed.

1. I was called to go for an MOHH scholarship interview. If I get the scholarship I'll be able to study locally (which is what I want) and not be worried about not getting a job in the future.

2. I was given the gift of tongues for the first time during a prayer session yesterday.

3. I found a buddy (ie Vanessa) to go for kickboxing and pilates classes with me! 

4. I'm stopping work at TMI on Thursday so I'll have more time to myself and to settle Australia uni applications.

5. I finally found a shop that sells really pretty phone covers. (kinda superficial but wdv hahaha)

6. I am learning how to accept myself and my body and how to be comfortable in my own skin, and just being myself :)

7. Hazel seems really happy and healthy now, which I am extremely grateful for.

8. And of course, I and all my loved ones are alive and happy and healthy!

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I went for latin jazz class on Monday and it was really a new experience! The dance requires you to move your hips and arms a lot which I'm really not used to! I was like a fish out of water and I bet I looked really awkward... I think I'll stick to my ballet and lyrical jazz lah haha.

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I also went to eat at Ssikkek Korean Grill at Novena with the ex-ODACians. It was meat heaven for me omg... It's buffet style so you can take as much as you want and grill it on a small grill in the middle of the table. I loved the beef!!

xx.

Strangers' Reunion Café

On Monday, I was pleasantly surprised when Xin Hui randomly asked me to go out for tea/dinner with her :) We decided to go to Strangers' Reunion Café near Outram Park MRT. 

The waffles there are the BEST. Xin Hui said they might be even better than Wimbly Lu.... (but more expensive also). We ordered scrambled eggs on english muffins (which we soon regretted because the portion was small and it looked like we could make it at home pffft) and a waffle with strawberry and ice cream. Wish we'd ordered 2 waffles instead :( 

Then we walked around and I brought XH to The Provision Shop (another café) and we went in and ate chocolate cake.............. #dontjudge #fatdieus Hey at least we shared hahaha

My food photography sucks so I insisted that we take a photo of ourselves so that I could post on instagram hahahaha

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Yesterday I didn't have work so I decided to go back to that area and walk around because the old peranakan architecture there is beautiful.

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On a side note, Hazel is doing much better now! Her eye infection is clearing up and she's eating and behaving normally except for the minor head tilt. I'm so happy! All my efforts are paying off :))

Ending off with a cute picture of Hazel <3