eat. sleep. study. repeat.

Finals start this Saturdayyyyy!!! Ah I feel guilty for blogging at a time like this when I'm supposed to be hardcore mugging... (the title of this post is (in theory) supposed to be my life now haha) so this post will just be short and filled with pictures (Y)

Went out with Gen and Xinhui to have dinner at Vivo and Gen drove us home! Seeing her drive made me kinda want to learn as well cos it's really cool. But no car no point hahaha

Mum and dad brought us to Crossings Cafe for lunch one Saturday and I thought it was nice because it's a social enterprise and all the profits earned go to charity. And the food was pretty good too! I loved the sweet potato fries.

Last psych lecture with Joey and Debs :( I hope we have some modules together in the future! Gonna miss hanging out at Ventus (ven-toos / vent-us hahaha) and online shopping together!

Bel got me Lang Leav's Lullabies for my birthday!!! She knows me best! Or maybe it's cos I kept hinting everyone so shamelessly lol. But still, she was the only one who picked up on my hints HAHA

VivaLatinus!! I'm really glad I joined :) Learning a new genre has re-ignited my love for dancing <3

Jiahua's birthday!!

Some random snaps (from snapchat in case you don't have the app, you're missing out!)

Ending with an OOTD featuring my new black hair and new pants! I don't know why I suck at taking OOTDs haha

Oh and I want to share this blog because she writes so beautifully > http://epiphanyinthecacophony.wordpress.com

xx.

Little Game

Gender is a social construct

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November, please be kind

Some belated birthday celebrations!!

Tiff told me there was something wrong with Grace and that she didn't know what to do and asked me to meet up with her. I totally suspected something hahaha cos if there was really something wrong with Grace I'm sure Tiff would have called me or at least old me what was wrong over sms. So I met Tiff and she kept looking at her phone (another giveaway lolll). We walked out of the MRT station and suddenly Tiff looked at her phone and turned around and Grace was standing some distance away. And then they were like "Surprise!" It was so funny hahahaha! Then we went for dinner at Boston Seafood Shack and dessert at Blackball :) I really appreciate the effort put into everything, especially since we're all so busy now with school. <3

This is a very unglam photo taken after training haha

but thankful for my Viva buddies Sheryl and Sabrina!

They used pocky sticks as candles hahaha qts

Here's some other random stuff I did over the month

Did some third wheeling @ daily scoop with the sis and Paul

Halloween at OTT!!!

Zebra crossings? Prison inmates?

Finally tried Paris Baguette #overpriced

Last LSM1301 bio lab session! I'm sad :"( I love bio labbbb

Feat. Zifang, Susanti and Yuhanis

The turtles came to OTT to eat and give me a birthday cupcake and card! <3

New favourite place: Mustafa

Omg I was so amazed at the amount of stuff they sell there! (can you see the Singapore flag umbrella in the background whut) And everything is so cheap! :O

I have some movie suggestions!

And While We Were Here (trailer)

Different from my usual rom coms!

Upside Down (trailer)

Really amazing concept! But story development and acting was meh. 

In fact I think the trailer is better than the movie. (So just watch the trailer haha)

On a more depressing note, I told mum and dad about my decision to stay. Now that I think back on it, I should have picked a more opportune time to reveal it, but I think I was just sick and tired of changing the subject when they asked me about it. And thus our dinner was ruined. Haha actually their reaction was completely unsurprising. But somehow I still felt very disappointed because I was harbouring the small hope that mum would actually wish me to be happy first and foremost, instead of being successful career-wise. Thought she was an I'll-support-you-in-whatever-makes-you-happy kinda parent? NOPE. Instead she said that if I don't "ace it" at NUS, I'll have to pay my own school fees... (which I suppose is not too bad since the government subsidises so much. #letsbeoptimistic hahaha) Anyway throughout dinner mum just went on and on attacking my decision :(

I guess it was then that I realised that I can't take much more of these constant insults. Even though I've grown a great deal stronger and know not to take them to heart, I still think it has some unconscious impact on me. And so I can't wait to move out of the house and put all this negativity behind me. I'll do what I must (provide for them in old age etc.) but hopefully I won't have to deal with so much shit anymore. And God forbid I will be this kind of mother if I ever have kids.

Kbye, off to look for my spouse for house now hahaha