I truly think that it is in small actions that we can show love, and I believe that love is meant to be shared. I cannot keep the love that has been given to me, I have to pass it on. Of course I cannot say that I wash someone's dishes everyday but also beat the person, that is not love, and it is silly to believe that the small things I do can 'make up' for the large amount of harm I may inflict. So my goal will be to do small things with great love and refrain from hurting others.
I have decided that I will try making someone's day everyday, be it a friend or stranger. I will also try to be more patient and understanding, judge less and compromise more. I know this has been my resolution for the longest time, and it is proving to be extremely difficult to fulfill, but now that it's out here permanently seared on the internet, I hope I will have more motivation to accomplish it! (Please scold me if I am not being patient and understanding and being judge-y instead lol)
My journey so far has obviously not been easy. Especially when I work at OTT. Sometimes I think that place is cursed lol because every time I work there I feel myself getting so easily annoyed at everybody (customers mostly). And it's strange because I don't feel that way once my shift ends and I don't have to deal with customers from hell anymore. I know what I have to do: put myself in their shoes, they are giving us business by eating there so I should do everything I can to make them comfortable and happy. But it is so difficult when they are so rude and inconsiderate to us. T_T
As I was growing up, they constantly told me that they loved me, but their actions said otherwise. It wasn't until I truly looked at my friends and their relationships with others that I realised there was more to love than fear and repayment; that when someone truly loves you, they don't ask for anything in return, nor do they insult you or do things that make you feel afraid to be yourself. I feel like I owe everything to the people that I've met along the way. My friends who have stuck around probably notice the constant change and growth in me. I feel that because of them, I am not scared anymore, I feel free, and maybe that is what relationships are supposed to feel like: free.
xx.