Hellooooo I'm back after a pretty long time haha. I've just been taking time to reconnect with myself and get over my breakup. It was a really shitty feeling at first and I just felt so lost and hopeless that I couldn't do things properly, cried nonstop in public and embarrassingly had a breakdown at training sighh.
But through this, I realised that there were so many people who were there for me and who love me unconditionally. I'm eternally grateful for all my friends, and especially xh who was there for me every single step of the way, listening to me and giving me pep talks :) and of course my dad who had so much patience with me, always checking if I was ok and comforting me even though he was probably sick of my crying lol. And I've also discovered how strong I really am. This relationship was eye-opening because it taught me that if we have to sacrifice so much of ourselves to chase after people who don't know our worth and don't treasure us, we'll end up being the one who's hurt in the end.
The way that he abandoned me and turned me to just another girl in his past hurt me so deeply, and I've to admit that I'm still not over that pain. But we move on the best we can. So I'm gonna continue my life where I left off, and stop chasing after people who don't want me~
Gonna publish some backdated posts soon heehee
xx.