2015 was CRAZY. It was the worst year of my life so far (20 years only lah, so it was probably not that bad in the grand scale of things...). I was on a mental and emotional roller coaster for most of the year, constantly battling with myself and feeling extremely hopeless and not in control of my state of mind. I really didn't know what to do with myself during that period.
The lyrics for one of my favourite songs go like this:
This is my prayer in desert,
when all that's within me feels dry.
This is my prayer in my hunger and need,
my God is the God who provides.
This is my prayer in the fire,
in weakness or trial or pain.
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold,
so refine me Lord through the flame.
So of course through it all I also will never forget the many many many blessings God has showered on me, and also all the lessons I've learnt, and how much I've grown.
I'm so thankful for the people around me who have been so patient and kind to me. Charis, for not judging at all, for taking care of me when I was at my lowest and for just being a really amazing person. And every one of my friends who have stuck around and put effort into our frienships: Xinhui, Gen, Su Lynn, Rong, the turtles.
Last year I also did many things that I never imagined I would do, like perform burlesque (omg) and quit OTT and do volunteer work and take up a leadership position in my CCA... May not seem very major, but really pushed me out of my comfort zone.
I will take my experiences with me from last year and try to be better to those around me. Here's to a great 2016~
xx.