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Study session disrupted by a fisheye lens and iphone's fade filter..... hehe

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Cherry blossoms in my heart

It's 1st May!!! So I guess it's time for my April photo diary~ Looking at the photos, it's been a pretty eventful month! Even though I felt like I didn't do much lol. Year 2 is gonna end in 2 days and I am not liking the idea of going on to year 3....... :/

ok back to the April photos hahaha
First, sashimi buffet! ヽ(^o^)ノ

The new Creamier at Gillman Barracks~ Yes I'm a waffles&icecream monsterrrr

Tried the new Timbre+ food centre thingy with NUS cell group!

Quinoa salad with the family on my precious free Sunday without Viva~

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14 years with Matt

Matt's birthday was on 15 April and mum and dad brought us to this cute eatery with amazing steak.
Cos Matt, like 99% of guys, loves meat haha.

Bday boy ♡
⊂((・ェ・  ))⊃ノ

Full family attendance!

My fave prawn aglio olio anytime~

It's so shocking to think of how fast my bro grew up :O Why can't he stay cute and small foreverrrrr.... hahah. Anyway, hope he can grow up well to become as amazing as our dad~
Ok I guess the more immediate goal is for him to stop playing so much computer games and do something useful with his life hahaha
Happy birthday to the biggest irritant~
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Sonder

Am feeling afraid because it's back. Everything is the same. No motivation for anything but lying in bed; the universe a breath against my throat and waves behind my eyelids. The worst part- I still can't control it. 

A bad time for this, just when I need to be productive. Breathe. Things will be ok.

The realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own.

Daily life

Happy birthday to this really amazing girl :)

Miss the ex-Viva squad <3

Also gonna miss my 2 training co-captains after they step down :'( 

We recently had auditions and I'm feeling a lil nervous to lead a new batch without these 2 pillars of support haha

Just gonna put this picture here cos it's pretty and it makes me happy haha :)

Anyway I've been re-watching scenes from my favourite Taiwanese drama every single night this week hahaha, it is amazing! And it makes me feel so warm and fuzzy, like I go to sleep happy and wake up in the morning in a good mood~

(abrupt change of topic hahaha) I experienced some pretty intense shock and despair today when I saw my bank account balance lol... This year is just a really bleak year for my finances and my savings from my job have run out haha :((( Even though I've cut down on my shopping A LOT and even the food I eat in school, I still find myself spending tons of money buying gifts, and on dates. I never understood how people could feel so depressed over finances, until today T_T guess it's cos I've always had enough... SIGH please let me get through this...

Anyway I decided to do a photo journal for the month of April and I'm pretty excited! Haha ok I'm weird but taking and editing photos makes me really happy~ (and it's free too lol) 
Have a good month everybody~ (^._.^)ﾉ
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♪ Straight to Memphis ♪

Ok I'm ready to write this post now that I've had sufficient time to wallow in my concert withdrawals for the past 1 week+ hahaha

I danced in 2 items this Cactus- Crazy in love and Memphis~ and it was freaking amazing! 

Memphis was a such a huge challenge for me because I was dancing with all the seniors and I hadn't even learnt samba or cha basics before. But it was so satisfying to finally go on stage and do all my hard work justice!! And the other day, the choreographer told me that she watched the concert video and was really proud of me cos I was on point!!!!! My heart exploded I think lol. I'm really quite happy that the memphis girls asked me to do this item despite my initial reservations, cos in the end, everything I put in was SO worth it.

Felt like Kens and Barbies hehehe

I'm so so so thankful that I had my amazing partner CH on this learning journey with me. I think we made lots of improvement together and he was just super patient whenever I was practising my other item, and he still came for every practise even after long work days so that I never had to dance on my own. And I was super impressed that he would automatically give me his jacket if I sniffed or folded my arms hahaha

And omg let's just talk about this moment..... I was practising in the corridor backstage when CH suddenly came out of the room with the biggest bouquet of flowers I've ever seen... And I was thinking omg is that for me it can't be for me!!!! And it WAS for me!!!!! I seriously couldn't stop smiling and I had to stop myself from crying if not I'd ruin my makeup lolol. I have never been so pleasantly surprised in my life, hands down one of the top 5 happiest moments hahaha AND he gave me a card too... so much effort leh! I feel so lucky~

I also feel really privileged that I got to dance in CIL, cos it was a genre that's close to ballet and I'm comfortable and happy doing~ also I really love the choreographer and all the emotions that she put in the item, the helplessness and pain and frustration.... She's also a great friend who's taught me many many things and when I showed up at training with crazy swollen eyes, she immediately hugged me and told me things would be ok :'-) She even sent me her psych research paper on mindful self-compassion to help me get through that shit hahaha

Choreographer + lead dancer + me haha

YK my partner for CIL!! Even though we only danced together for like 4 eights, I really enjoyed it~ Especially the fan kick lift part, it was super funnnn~ Also very thankful that he didn't drop my heavy butt lolol

CIL WHOOSH!!!

I don't know where all the CIL group photos are :((((( They're lost in someone else's camera haha

I love all my flowerssssss~ some people may say I'm shallow but idgaf flowers=joy+beauty hahaha

And here are the concert videos!!!

Memphis part 1

Memphis part 2

CIL

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