Noël

I spent this Christmas in Malaysia because some of my relatives live there and it was sort of a reunion for my mother's side of the family.

Christmas OOTD (the dress and bag are Christmas gifts from XH and Gen. Thank you guys!)

Christmas dinner at XH's

OTT Christmas party

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU <3

Here's to a great 2015 ahead

xx.

Of good friends and good food

Holidays started the moment my exams ended lol. Eug and I watched Love Rosie after work on Saturday, and I loved it! There are real moments of impact, but not the kind that makes you cry uncontrollably (lol), which was nice :)

Dinner at The Sushi Bar before the movie! Omnomnom

Acid bar \o/

My dance school's recital was on 1st December and it was really fun! I love performing on stage! Watching people dance can be so breathtaking and it feels really wonderful to be given the chance to be a part of it. When I manage to perfect a dance, it feels like I'm not that useless after all. And I'm super touched that Gen, Charis, Xinhui and Su Lynn came to watch me :') Especially Su cos she had a final paper the next day! No pics cos they were all BAAAAD hahaha

After the recital, Eug and Char came to fetch me and we went to watch the midnight screening of Mockingjay, which was ok, but I guess all the action and excitement is in part 2? And the next day I flew off to Osaka with my family (separate Japan post coming up after I get over my laziness to look through the photos lol)

When I came back, I met XH for dinner at Clarke Quay! Where we bluffed people on snapchat that we were going on the GMAX lol. (XH sorry I don't think I can keep my promise of going on that thing with you)

The BFFS reunited! We ate at Supply and Demand at Orchard Gateway which sucked because Su waited ONE HOUR for her food! The food itself was not bad but we had all finished eating and her food still hadn't come! And the service sucked, not even a "sorry for the wait" when it finally came, which is especially bad since we asked why it was taking so long multiple times tsk. Sorry ranting already haha

After lunch Su Lynn had to leave :( so we walked to the Christmas tree at Ion without her to take photos.

Oops... I like this photo somehow haha (don't kill me guys)

This photo is heavily edited because the photographer was so bad lol

Tim Ho Wan AND The Assembly Ground with the 3/4 of the turtles (Cheryl having fun in Batam without us haha). We ate 2 lunches it was so fattening omg

"Fire burns brighter in the darkness" siol

Today I had brunch with Nic at The Tastemaker Store! It was a good catch-up session and I thank God for putting people in my life who understand what I'm going through so that I don't feel so alone :) 

(The matcha latte was really good!)

After brunch, I met XH and we went to Charis' house to play with Abby (and Band Hero which I totally suck at lol) and then we had dinner together at Udders. Thanks for inviting me Charis, I had a great time!! <3

A few more weeks and it's back to the grind (school) T_T

xx.

eat. sleep. study. repeat.

Finals start this Saturdayyyyy!!! Ah I feel guilty for blogging at a time like this when I'm supposed to be hardcore mugging... (the title of this post is (in theory) supposed to be my life now haha) so this post will just be short and filled with pictures (Y)

Went out with Gen and Xinhui to have dinner at Vivo and Gen drove us home! Seeing her drive made me kinda want to learn as well cos it's really cool. But no car no point hahaha

Mum and dad brought us to Crossings Cafe for lunch one Saturday and I thought it was nice because it's a social enterprise and all the profits earned go to charity. And the food was pretty good too! I loved the sweet potato fries.

Last psych lecture with Joey and Debs :( I hope we have some modules together in the future! Gonna miss hanging out at Ventus (ven-toos / vent-us hahaha) and online shopping together!

Bel got me Lang Leav's Lullabies for my birthday!!! She knows me best! Or maybe it's cos I kept hinting everyone so shamelessly lol. But still, she was the only one who picked up on my hints HAHA

VivaLatinus!! I'm really glad I joined :) Learning a new genre has re-ignited my love for dancing <3

Jiahua's birthday!!

Some random snaps (from snapchat in case you don't have the app, you're missing out!)

Ending with an OOTD featuring my new black hair and new pants! I don't know why I suck at taking OOTDs haha

Oh and I want to share this blog because she writes so beautifully > http://epiphanyinthecacophony.wordpress.com

xx.

Little Game

Gender is a social construct

xx.

November, please be kind

Some belated birthday celebrations!!

Tiff told me there was something wrong with Grace and that she didn't know what to do and asked me to meet up with her. I totally suspected something hahaha cos if there was really something wrong with Grace I'm sure Tiff would have called me or at least old me what was wrong over sms. So I met Tiff and she kept looking at her phone (another giveaway lolll). We walked out of the MRT station and suddenly Tiff looked at her phone and turned around and Grace was standing some distance away. And then they were like "Surprise!" It was so funny hahahaha! Then we went for dinner at Boston Seafood Shack and dessert at Blackball :) I really appreciate the effort put into everything, especially since we're all so busy now with school. <3

This is a very unglam photo taken after training haha

but thankful for my Viva buddies Sheryl and Sabrina!

They used pocky sticks as candles hahaha qts

Here's some other random stuff I did over the month

Did some third wheeling @ daily scoop with the sis and Paul

Halloween at OTT!!!

Zebra crossings? Prison inmates?

Finally tried Paris Baguette #overpriced

Last LSM1301 bio lab session! I'm sad :"( I love bio labbbb

Feat. Zifang, Susanti and Yuhanis

The turtles came to OTT to eat and give me a birthday cupcake and card! <3

New favourite place: Mustafa

Omg I was so amazed at the amount of stuff they sell there! (can you see the Singapore flag umbrella in the background whut) And everything is so cheap! :O

I have some movie suggestions!

And While We Were Here (trailer)

Different from my usual rom coms!

Upside Down (trailer)

Really amazing concept! But story development and acting was meh. 

In fact I think the trailer is better than the movie. (So just watch the trailer haha)

On a more depressing note, I told mum and dad about my decision to stay. Now that I think back on it, I should have picked a more opportune time to reveal it, but I think I was just sick and tired of changing the subject when they asked me about it. And thus our dinner was ruined. Haha actually their reaction was completely unsurprising. But somehow I still felt very disappointed because I was harbouring the small hope that mum would actually wish me to be happy first and foremost, instead of being successful career-wise. Thought she was an I'll-support-you-in-whatever-makes-you-happy kinda parent? NOPE. Instead she said that if I don't "ace it" at NUS, I'll have to pay my own school fees... (which I suppose is not too bad since the government subsidises so much. #letsbeoptimistic hahaha) Anyway throughout dinner mum just went on and on attacking my decision :(

I guess it was then that I realised that I can't take much more of these constant insults. Even though I've grown a great deal stronger and know not to take them to heart, I still think it has some unconscious impact on me. And so I can't wait to move out of the house and put all this negativity behind me. I'll do what I must (provide for them in old age etc.) but hopefully I won't have to deal with so much shit anymore. And God forbid I will be this kind of mother if I ever have kids.

Kbye, off to look for my spouse for house now hahaha